I believe that God is setting me free from some of the bondage, specifically financial bondage, I've been in for years, in obeying God in my move to Redding, California.
Now understand, because of what Jesus did for us, we're free from any curses that were on us. But sometimes that freedom does not manifest until later. It's not any work of mine that is setting me free! Jesus already did it! But you've got to sometimes work a little to step into that freedom. You've got to have faith. And sometimes, freedom is a very scary thing to step into.
In the natural, I have no clue where the money would come from. But I know God has it all handled. Part of how I get the financial means to go to Redding, CA requires sensitivity to the holy spirit on my part. Part of it requires saving the money, though I'm tempted to spend it. Another part of it will come from others being sensitive to the Holy Spirit about if and how much they should give to help me out.
Fortunately the goal has been reduced. Originally, I was planning on $1000.00 by the end of the month. Now that I know there won't be a security deposit for the room I'm renting, I'm going to need exactly $585.00 for the first month ($100.00 of that is a cleaning deposit) and then $485.00 afterwards.
Right now, I am still in need of $305.00. I've still got stuff on Ebay to get me there. I'm going to be putting more stuff up today.
I am also needing money for food, both on the way to Redding and when I get there. Really, I have no clue on how much I will be spending for that, but I'll find out. I may be doing plenty of fasting! But that's ok. :-)
I believe God is setting me free from what I call "The curse of 'I can't have nothin'". My parents have repeated "I can't have nothin" over and over again whenever anything of theirs was broken. Now they didn't intend on putting themselves or their children under a curse. They don't know much as far as speaking blessings or cursings over anyone, including themselves, go. I've tried to explain it to them, but just haven't been successful. One day they'll get it. But in my life, I have seen things that I've bought not last nearly as long as they should have, and money go faster than it should have. OK, the money going faster than it should have is something I'm largely responsible for. But sometimes at the root of that can be a financial curse that needs to be broken. I'm being set free to make good financial decisions. And also, I'm not going to be worried about what I have or don't have! There's plenty of things that I want, but I know I'm already blessed beyond many people already! If a person living on $15.00/month in a third world country can be content, why can't I be content living on $200.00 every two weeks? Part of that is because of our society demanding more, I understand that. Part of it is because we're worried about having our own "stuff" and we've got to have the latest and greatest stuff on top of that!
And having stuff isn't necessarily a bad thing. It's a bad thing, however, when we worry about that stuff.
I collect vintage computer stuff, mainly games and the computers to run them on. I've got a Commodore 64 I'd love to keep, as a collector. But the calling that God has on my life is more important to me than some silly collection hobby. The Commodore 64 is going. I can't have nothin? Wrong! The fact is, I don't need to have everything! I need to have what God has for me! More importantly, I just need God! And God will even provide me with things that I want! We need to be willing to give up our posessions for God's purpose, when God calls us to do so! And you know what? God may just give it back to us when we do give it up! Or he may give something even better!
I also have some keyboards that I'm getting rid of. I bought them for the interesting vintage sounds they make. But God blessed me with a really nice synthesizer last spring. These other keyboards, while I'd like to keep them, are not of use to me anymore. Yes, I can still sample them and mangle the sounds for my electronic music that I do, but I can do many of the same things with my Alesis Micron. Now it's time for the other keyboards to go, and I'm fine with it. Some day, God may ask me to give up the Alesis Micron, and that will be ok.
I'm being set free from some physical issues, specifically my weight. Back to the cureses, as well as personal responsibility... I'm going to need to eat healthier. This will probably mean more fruist and vegetables, more salads and less of McDonalds and Taco Bell. I'm also going to need to exercise. Fortunately, the area I'm moving to has great hiking trails, and I love hiking! That's exercise! I'll probably start going on daily walks too. As far as curses go in this case, my mother always keeps bringing up my issue with weight. In fact, she brought up the issue with weight before the weight was truly an issue. I was just fine as far as my weight went at one point, and my mother felt I was overweight. My mother has had a life-long struggle with weight herself. And I know she doesn't want me to end up like her, but the problem was she was already speaking like I would long before I started gaining weight. The depression I went through a few years ago and the weight gain caused by the medication I was on didn't help the situation any.
Anyway, Jesus has already set me free from these curses on the cross! It's up to me to step out into the freedom! That's what I'll be doing in Redding, California. One day, I'll come back here to the Raleigh area, and be able to minister that freedom to others.
I've already been walking in the freedom from the depression and the emotional roller coaster I've been through. That's a good start. Now there's more!
If you know Jesus as your Lord and Savior, you are free! But if you don't feel free, it's because you haven't started walking in that freedom yet. Are there spiritual, demonic forces behind you not realizing that freedom? Perhaps, and God will help you get to the root of it. But just ask the holy spirit to help you find areas of your life where you haven't walked in freedom yet, and then try it out! You might stumble at first, and you might run back into that place where you don't seem so free. But don't give up. You are free!
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