So...why hasn't God provided for me like I thought he would?

That's a good question.

Basically, I'm finding that the whole graphic and web design field wasn't even right for me, even temporarily.  While I did enjoy web design, I just haven't been able to get a job in that field, other than with someone who gives me hardly any work because he's in and out of the hospital..  It's simply because I'm looking in a field that God has not anointed me to work in.

I'm trying to get to a place where I only do what I see the Father do.  And quite frankly, while my time at the School of Communication Arts was blessed (I don't know why), it doesn't mean that I'm going to have a career in that field.

So this is how it is.  Tomorrow morning, I will be ready to walk around town (well what else can I do when I have no gas money?) and apply for work.  I'm going on another blitz.  I need to get all my work history and references together, again, seeing how that stuff is still on an external hard drive that no longer works.

And who knows, maybe working in retail or food services here in Redding, California will be a much more pleasant experience than it ever was back home.