God provides :)

Hey everyone. My deposit for my mission trip to Guadalajara will be paid tomorrow! Praise God!

I am still believing for my rent money and this month's tuition payment.

So, a question in a previous blog was if God is always on time, why hasn't he been on time for me lately?

The Holy Spirit reminded me of a recent sermon by Bill Johnson, where he talked about when you are wanting breakthrough for healing, and you know it's God's will for healing, but you don't see it happen, that he is calling you to spend more time in the secret place with him. The Holy Spirit told me (at least for me, and probably for you too) that this is applicable in other areas as well, such as finances. When we know what God's will is for anything, but we see it's not happening, it's not that God isn't being faithful. He's calling you to the secret place to press in.

Friday, I think I'll be getting a little more money in, and I believe it will be enough to finish paying my rent for this month.

One last thing. A lot of what I post here on my blog, is a way, a process for me. I need to get some of my thoughts out. So when I posted "if God is always on time, why am I not seeing it", it's not that I'm giving up, and it seems for me at this point the Lord won't even allow me to give up. (I do believe he gives us free will, but at the same time, even when the thought comes up, instead of being motivated to give up like I may have been in the fast, I am motivated to fight to stay in, and it seems like more than a motivation, but it's just something I must do, or else my life will be far less than what God has meant it to be and I would be in sin, but it's so strong I don't even feel I have the ability to make the decision to give up) I won't give up.

Why is this fight so hard for me? Because what I'm going through now is to prepare me for what I'm going to have to believe God for (it's probably going to require millions of dollars) when I go and do what he has called me to do in ministry.