I'm thankful for the breakthrough I've had since I came back to Redding. I was able to pay rent for a month. I have a client I'm doing work for. It looked like I was going to get a call from Yaks Koffee for a second interview to work on their web site and manage it!
I'm thankful for that breakthrough!
However, I've only seen part of the breakthrough I need!
I've had quite a history of only seeing partial breakthrough. Something isn't right here. God is not a half way God.
So right now I'm working on this web site for this one client. I thought I'd be done by now, yet I'm not.
I've had a few potential clients that I honestly thought would hire me by now. It turns out they are only remaining potential clients.
I haven't heard back from Yaks Koffee.
I haven't really found a permanent job yet. I've had interviews, but nothing has worked out.
I'm broke and in need of money.
Remembering back to when I was in ministry school last year, I saw some breakthrough. Then the breakthrough stopped coming.
It doesn't make sense! I believe God keeps his word. If he says he's going to provide, hes going to provide. So I'm not sure why I'm not seeing the total breakthrough I need.
I believed God wanted me back in Redding. I still believe that. However, there is this temptation to go back to Raleigh, NC right now as a few of my friends have suggested.
Honestly, though, I know in my heart if I go back now, I'm giving up on God and the things he promised me. Either that or I've been delusional the whole time I've been here in California, and even before that. But it wouldn't be just me who was delusional but those who sent me out here in the first place as well.
Either God is going to give me the whole break through soon or I've just been delusional this whole time and need to go back to Raleigh. But I'm just crazy enough to stay here believing for the whole breakthrough just a little bit longer.
I'm thankful for that breakthrough!
However, I've only seen part of the breakthrough I need!
I've had quite a history of only seeing partial breakthrough. Something isn't right here. God is not a half way God.
So right now I'm working on this web site for this one client. I thought I'd be done by now, yet I'm not.
I've had a few potential clients that I honestly thought would hire me by now. It turns out they are only remaining potential clients.
I haven't heard back from Yaks Koffee.
I haven't really found a permanent job yet. I've had interviews, but nothing has worked out.
I'm broke and in need of money.
Remembering back to when I was in ministry school last year, I saw some breakthrough. Then the breakthrough stopped coming.
It doesn't make sense! I believe God keeps his word. If he says he's going to provide, hes going to provide. So I'm not sure why I'm not seeing the total breakthrough I need.
I believed God wanted me back in Redding. I still believe that. However, there is this temptation to go back to Raleigh, NC right now as a few of my friends have suggested.
Honestly, though, I know in my heart if I go back now, I'm giving up on God and the things he promised me. Either that or I've been delusional the whole time I've been here in California, and even before that. But it wouldn't be just me who was delusional but those who sent me out here in the first place as well.
Either God is going to give me the whole break through soon or I've just been delusional this whole time and need to go back to Raleigh. But I'm just crazy enough to stay here believing for the whole breakthrough just a little bit longer.
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