So I've been doing work in Chesapeake, Virginia.
I plan on being back in California in the middle of April at this time. So that's good.
I had the interview (or the rest of it) last week. However, there seems to be some doubt from the interviewer about my finances. I'm believing I'll get in anyway.
I do believe i need to go back to California, and I believe I also need to move forward into my equipping for ministry.
But now I believe the Holy Spirit is telling me not to limit it to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry any more. I've realised that being at Bethel has made me aware of other places as well that I could go to. It also got me to where I need to be. My doubt at one point got me out of there. But I can't limit myself to Bethel any more. So I am looking at other options in California. Assuming I get back into school, that's great. I know I'll have the finances. The guy I'm working for is going to be bringing me plenty of work as far as that goes. I guess that's just hard for some people to believe.
It's time to move forward. It may not look like I thought it was going to, but that's ok.
If Bethel doesn't work out, other schools I'm going to try are Potters House School of Supernatural Ministry, Kingdom Training School of Supernatural Ministry, Activation Training Center (do I have that name right) at Awakening in Carlsbad/San Diego, and maybe So-Cal School of the Supernatural.
I'm believing, however, that I will have favor for BSSM and I will get in. So for now, the others are on hold for Bethel. It's taking longer to receive the acceptance letter than it did the time I went there before. I think part of that is because there's a prophetic conference going on at Bethel this week. So I'll have to wait longer than normal.
Back to working here in Chesapeake. Quite frankly, the work has caused me to be in a circle of Christians that I honestly don't feel I mesh well with. I can't agree with a lot of things said and done because of my convictions and the revelation I've had. And it's hard for me to minister like I believe God wants me to. But I feel this is a growing time too. We need to learn to be in unity with other believers. We're not going to agree on everything. That's fine. Yes, there are certain mindsets here that I feel would hinder me, and people expect me to have those mindsets. But I don't have to take on those mindsets. I am unique. I am becoming who God made me to be and not who man wants me to be.
As far as the relationship with my church back in North Carolina goes, I really don't know. When I'm with them I definitely know that they still love me. I guess maybe some people feel they can't trust me, for various reasons, to meet the goal that they sent me out to complete though. If that's the case, they're putting their trust in the wrong person anyway. It's God they need to trust in. OK, that's one possibility. Maybe it's something else. Maybe God is wanting me to end that close relationship that I've had with the people at my church. It's really hard to tell. I do know that I've said some things that have been hurtful in the past. No, they haven't all read it. But I know Matt has, and possibly others. It was out of frustration, total misunderstanding, and a lack of trust. They're not in the position now that they were in a couple of years ago when they first sent me out to Redding. Things have changed. They're not really even the same church any more for a good part. Yes they have some of the same core people but they're different now. And I trust that it's for the best. I still send Matt updates but I don't expect a response and I don't feel the relationship is what it used to be. I wanted to make things right. I've done what I could and it's time to move on. God bless them. They are still an amazing group of believers.
Moving on...it's time to go into the future. I don't update my blogs much lately. I'll keep it updated from time to time, but I don't know how often.
I plan on being back in California in the middle of April at this time. So that's good.
I had the interview (or the rest of it) last week. However, there seems to be some doubt from the interviewer about my finances. I'm believing I'll get in anyway.
I do believe i need to go back to California, and I believe I also need to move forward into my equipping for ministry.
But now I believe the Holy Spirit is telling me not to limit it to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry any more. I've realised that being at Bethel has made me aware of other places as well that I could go to. It also got me to where I need to be. My doubt at one point got me out of there. But I can't limit myself to Bethel any more. So I am looking at other options in California. Assuming I get back into school, that's great. I know I'll have the finances. The guy I'm working for is going to be bringing me plenty of work as far as that goes. I guess that's just hard for some people to believe.
It's time to move forward. It may not look like I thought it was going to, but that's ok.
If Bethel doesn't work out, other schools I'm going to try are Potters House School of Supernatural Ministry, Kingdom Training School of Supernatural Ministry, Activation Training Center (do I have that name right) at Awakening in Carlsbad/San Diego, and maybe So-Cal School of the Supernatural.
I'm believing, however, that I will have favor for BSSM and I will get in. So for now, the others are on hold for Bethel. It's taking longer to receive the acceptance letter than it did the time I went there before. I think part of that is because there's a prophetic conference going on at Bethel this week. So I'll have to wait longer than normal.
Back to working here in Chesapeake. Quite frankly, the work has caused me to be in a circle of Christians that I honestly don't feel I mesh well with. I can't agree with a lot of things said and done because of my convictions and the revelation I've had. And it's hard for me to minister like I believe God wants me to. But I feel this is a growing time too. We need to learn to be in unity with other believers. We're not going to agree on everything. That's fine. Yes, there are certain mindsets here that I feel would hinder me, and people expect me to have those mindsets. But I don't have to take on those mindsets. I am unique. I am becoming who God made me to be and not who man wants me to be.
As far as the relationship with my church back in North Carolina goes, I really don't know. When I'm with them I definitely know that they still love me. I guess maybe some people feel they can't trust me, for various reasons, to meet the goal that they sent me out to complete though. If that's the case, they're putting their trust in the wrong person anyway. It's God they need to trust in. OK, that's one possibility. Maybe it's something else. Maybe God is wanting me to end that close relationship that I've had with the people at my church. It's really hard to tell. I do know that I've said some things that have been hurtful in the past. No, they haven't all read it. But I know Matt has, and possibly others. It was out of frustration, total misunderstanding, and a lack of trust. They're not in the position now that they were in a couple of years ago when they first sent me out to Redding. Things have changed. They're not really even the same church any more for a good part. Yes they have some of the same core people but they're different now. And I trust that it's for the best. I still send Matt updates but I don't expect a response and I don't feel the relationship is what it used to be. I wanted to make things right. I've done what I could and it's time to move on. God bless them. They are still an amazing group of believers.
Moving on...it's time to go into the future. I don't update my blogs much lately. I'll keep it updated from time to time, but I don't know how often.
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