Sunday evening service at Bethel was awesome. Danny Silk was preaching about signs and wonders, how good God is, etc.
There was a fire tunnel at the end. Wearing a River of Fire youth t-shirt (from New Beginnings Church in Clayton, NC) and going through a fire tunnel is dangerous!
Current thoughts on dating...
I don't feel like I'm quite ready to date anyone yet. I want to get a job first. There are some girls I have met, however, who I might be interested in once I am ready. At the same time, though, I've had a tendency to only ask a girl out if I knew she was going to say yes anyway. I guess I don't like the rejection. Now if the idea of dating a particular girl is driving me crazy enough, and she really hasn't let me know that she likes me, I will ask her out...and generally the answer is "nope, sorry". In fact, every time I can remember that I've attempted to ask a girl that I wasn't sure liked me or not, the answer was "no". I guess a girl just has to make it obvious that she'd like to date me before I can ask her, but then what's the point in asking her?
When it comes to looks, I'm actually going to risk sounding shallow here; I'm not going to lie. I tend to be attracted to girls that I think look good. I'm saying this, knowing that a girl would probably tell me there are much better looking guys than me out there. But looks are not everything, either. There are some girls I've met who I find very attractive physically, but I would never date. Looks are not the only thing I will look at before I decide to ask a girl out.
Interesting thing, however, is that looks are pretty much a matter of opinion as well. There was one girl I was crazy about in my senior year in high school (who also was not interested in me). Well, she got me to take this one girl, who I wasn't even attracted to, out to my senior prom. What's funny is that my parents thought this girl I was taking to the prom was more attractive than the girl I was actually interested in. I didn't agree at all. I was very much unattracted (is that a word?) to my prom date.
I will only date a girl, however, who loves Jesus more than anything or anyone. She's got to have other stuff in order too. She doesn't have to have everything all together, because really, no one does have it all together, but she's got to be putting forth the effort and trusting in God. She doesn't have to look perfect, either. I know God has called me to ministry and I would hope to eventually find a girl who would want to help out with the things that are on my heart, and also that I'd be able to help with the things she has on her heart. The girl I would eventually marry would have to be my best friend, most definitely. I do believe the right one that God has for me is someone I'm going to find to be very beautiful as well.
Now I don't want to say that girls are never attracted to me. I've dated a few girls in the past, most of whom I would still say are attractive.
I'm normally silent about this kind of stuff. Finding that right girl for me isn't really my priority. It just crosses my mind from time to time and it's been crossing my mind a lot lately. The desire to finally meet her, whoever she is, has definitely been there. There have been a few girls out there who I thought might be the right one for me that I've dated. The last one was 5 years ago. I've pretty much ruled out finding her in the Raleigh, NC area, especially since I don't live there anymore.
Other stuff...
I'm really finding Redding to be where I'm supposed to be for this season, and I think it's where I should have been all along. I think if my parents had been following God like they should, we would have moved out here over 10 years ago. I would be in better shape because I would continue to hike regularly with friends. I would have friends that I would actually fit in with! That's the cool thing about this place; most of the friends I'm making at Bethel Church are people I can actually fit in with. It's just fulfilling the prophecy that Ryan Internicola from Zadok House of Prayer sang over me earlier this year, in March. For some who aren't familiar with this, he was singing a song that said that where I was at, I didn't fit in, but God would be putting me in a place soon where I did fit in. That's not to say I didn't fit in at New Beginnings, because I did. But it was such a small group of people there my age that I did fit in with that it wasn't quite what I needed. I believe I can honestly say that this prophecy is fulfilled!
I recently reposted the prophecy from Ivan Allum. I believe parts of that prophecy, as well, have been fulfilled. There are parts that will take some time to fulfill, as well.
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