Maybe I was better off being homeless in Redding...

Let me explain the title of my post.

OK, so I found telecommuting work doing web and graphic design. Well I'm still working out the contract and payment on that. So that's good. But I have a feeling that I could be kicked out. Well if I end up homeless, there goes the work too, right?

And it seems that my friendships here in Raleigh aren't going that great. I don't know. Maybe I've changed. Maybe my friends are finding me to be a totally different person than they knew two years ago, and they liked the person they knew two years ago.

I can't really get anywhere without a car. Buses don't run out here, except for the JCATS (Johnston County Area Transit System) and you've got to call the business day before to get a ride from them. And Taxis definitely aren't going to be a cost-effective way of getting around. I looked at the rates. Not anything anyone in their right mind would do unless they have a lot of money.

A lot of my friends in Redding were suggesting that I go back home. I did. And for some reason, it seems I'm in a worse situation than what I was in in Redding.

I don't think my friends there intended for this to happen, but this is happening.

So really, I'm not sure what to do.

I would talk to someone at church to see if I could get some kind of help. However, I don't have a ride to church.

I'm not saying I'm going back to Redding right now. I still need to give it a shot here in Raleigh, and hope I don't end up homeless. But I'm tempted to head back there sooner than I planned on it. And my friends told me that they'd rather see me go home than end up homeless there. Well I could be homeless here anyway. And the way things are going, I'm not sure it's better off to be homeless here than it is there.

Somehow, I got myself in this mess. Somehow, I'm going to get out of it. Don't know how yet, but I'm going to get out of it.